Jealousy Can Motivate

I am jealous of Drew's ex-girlfriend Samantha because she is skinnier than me, prettier than me, has a farm, a full time job, a successful fiance, a dog, a garden, a fish pond, and never even went to college. Her life is better than mine and mine should be better than hers. Drew gave me hope today that if I was skinny I might be as pretty as her, or more pretty. I want to prove something. I want him to be proud of me, not her. She has stuff over me and I want to win! I deserve to win and I will prove it. One day I will be as skinny as her, prettier than her, richer than her, have a better job, smarter than her, happier than her, and have more animals than her. I will wear better clothes and make her jealous of me. No one will be able to look at her and say that Drew got the worse deal. No way am I going to let this go. Drew drew the line in the sand and I am going to cross it. He has never known me to be thin so I must show him how good I can be. I am not telling him this because I don't want him monitoring or judging me. Sam will go down. I will take her place in his life! So far I have won with him except for looks. No longer! She will not win!